Christopher Mackin

hey cj well today is fathers day. when i got up today the thoughts of you overwhelmed me. i thought of christhoper an logan an how you were denided spending this day with them. i know for a fact how much you luved them both. and one day ill make sure that they both know that. theres so much more i want to say on this subject but it only brings much saddnest to think about it. i remember when u were like 4 or 5 you made a little fathers day card. i wish i still had it. u drew some kinda pic on it with a pencil. i think your mom helped ya with it.anyway cj i wanted to wish u a happy fathers day even though ure not here with us in person now ull always be in our thoughts an our hearts. i miss ya son. till we meet again i luve ya man. luv dad

Son I sit here today missing you so much I just can't beleive it has been 2 months since those monsters took you from us. Chris and I over the last 2 months have talked about so many memories that we have of you. Chris talked about one of the first times he took you hunting and you was so excited ya'll had gotten up early that morning and he had put you on a stand and he was up a little way from you and you fell asaleep and the deer came right up in front of you less then 25 ft and you did not see it cause you fell asleep. I was remebering the other day while I was doing laundry tback in 97 when I was putting up the wallpaper in the livingroom and the dryer caught on fire and I came running into your room to tell you to get out of the house and I was going to go out and leave the fire burning until the firemen got here but you kept your head cool and got the fire extingusiher and put the fire out yourself. Son I wish I could have been there to put out the fire for you that night those monster took you from us but I wasn't but son I promise you I will not let it rest until they all pay for what they did to you. I love you and miss you so much son I will never be the same again since this happened.

cj its still hard to beleve ure gone.every now and then i play that voice mail you left me on my cell phone an couple wks b4 u left us. it brings saddnest but at the same time it brings me comfort. i sit sometimes and remember the last long conversation we had when u lived out here with us. it was cold as crap as we stood out in that little porc smoking an drinking coffee. we talked about alot of things that day. your murder bought back so many bad memories for me the murder o f your uncel alan in 76 an the murder of tori my grandaughtr your cousin in 97. its like this family has a dark cloud that hangs over us. they say god has a plan for all of us but i have a hard time beleving that your murder was in his plan. that wasnt gods will cj that was mans will. an ill always beleve that.may the ones that did this to you rot in hell. they had no right or reason to take you away from us. i miss you you son. ill luv you always dad

Man it has been 2 months since i have seen u and it hurts.Its sad them ass holes took u away from me u and smooches.I just wish i knew that april.11,2010 was your last day here cause i hadnt seen u in a week and never knew it was your birthday.I feel so bad man cause i never got 2 say goodbye.I just wish time could play over cause i would have taken that for u man and u know it i feel so bad man iam here and your gone.You was doing so good and i just couldnt belive u hit a full 360 and then this these fuckers will pay 4 this if it my last breath.Well enough of that i will miss me and u at chill cook off it will never be the same or even fishing at the silver peir were we caught big catfish and bass.Really going 2 miss holidays cause i remeber having thanksgiving at your house and even drinking jim beam on christmas.BUt i love u miss u and like i said have a beer ready and a fishing pole waiting..Well got 2 go now cj see u soon bud